Don’t you ever wish that there were always…
Nathanael Berends October 13th, 2004
Ha… I go for premium, and then realize that I have been
loosing any inclination to use this site.
(iLaugh)
(recent headlines): Don’t you ever wish that there were always
that one person who you could talk to about anything, anytime?
Yeah… um.. about that…
(any eProps that offer any remote bit of sympathy will be
disregarded. yes, i know that you guys are there, and all
things considered i’ve not got it all that bad… but i guess
that sometimes things just sorta build up…)
((i’ll take care of it))
… Actually… I’m on a role… Can I continue?!?
So lately… things have seriously fallen to (excuse my expletive)
shit.
…it’s funny, because it seems like I’ve had so much practice at
faking things, that I can smile my way through the day, and fool
everyone. On a good day, I might even be able to fool myself!
Where even to start?!?
(i’ll make it brief )
1.) Baxter… Falling to hell in a handbasket. I spent the second
day this week ducking out of class on ‘bathroom breaks’ to field
phone calls & voicemail messages.
2.) School… I first thought I could catch myself back up. This sucks.
3.) Friendships… Don’t you hate it when they aren’t what they seem?!?
4.) 42nd Street… Nancy. (what more can i say?)
5.) My Future… Scares me shitless.
6.) Overdraft notices, and $100 in fines… Who knew you had to
authorize them to take money from my savings account (where
there is MORE than enough), and move it to pay for my debit
account? $100 for an F-in signature… AHHHHHH!
7.) $190 in college app fees to date… Enough Said. (i’ve applied
to one school so far)
(( i really could go on for a LONG time…))
… The only upside to any of this that I see in the near future…
almost ten times ‘that’ from Baxter in hourly fees…
As a last note: Remember when I told you how scared I was of
failure?!?
… wait for it…