(silly you.)
Nathanael Berends July 14th, 2004
[silly you... it isn't sad... it is exciting!]
Archive for July, 2004
Shopping for Schools
Nathanael Berends July 13th, 2004
I Am Looking At Schools Right Now…
- Sarah Lawrence University
- Emerson College
- Berklee School Of Music
- Northwestern Universtiy
- NYU
- University Of Michigan
- Boston University
- Cooper Union
- Boston College
This website is awesome… you should set up an account.
I Created My Profile -With A 3.6 GPA, & A Score Of 30 On The ACT…
Though I realize that the profiles can be VERY inaccurate, check out what it told me about my schools of choice:
Sarah Lawrence - Safety
Emerson - Safety
Berklee School Of Music - Safety
NYU - Safety
U of M - Safety
University Of CO - Boulder - Safety
Graduate School Of Journalism & Mass Communication At UC-Boulder - Good Fit
Boston University - Good Fit
Northwestern - Reach
Cooper Union - Reach
Now… I Realize These Are Rather Inaccurate - Classifying U of M, & NYU As Safetys… But Still, It Is Kindof Encouraging!!!
Here Are Some Interesting Facts - They Are Ranks Out Of The 351 Top Schools In The Country.
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Schools Where Students Ignore God On A Regular Basis:
#7 - Emerson
#8 - Sarah Lawrence
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Great College Theatre
#1 - Emerson
#6 - Northwestern
#8 - Sarah Lawrence
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Nobody Plays Intramural Sports
#1 - Emerson
#2 - Sarah Lawrence
#9 - NYU
#13 - Cooper Union
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Intercollegate Sports Ignored, or Non-Existant
#3 - Sarah Lawrence
#5 - Emerson
#9 - NYU
#17 - Cooper Union
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Dorms Like Palaces
#18 - Boston Universtiy
#20 - Sarah Lawrence
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Birkenstock-Wearing, Tree-Hugging, Clove-Smoking Vegetarians
#10 - Sarah Lawrence
#17 - NYU
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Great College Towns
#1 - NYU
#7 - Boston University
#12 - Cooper Union
#13 - Boston College
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Party Schools
#12 - U of M
#18 - NYU
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Now… An Award That I Didn’t Understand… Any Help Would Be Much Appreciated…
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Dodge Ball Targets
- Based on a combination of survey questions concerning intercollegiate and intramural sports, the popularity of the Greek system, theater, and cigarettes.
#1 - Emerson College
#2 - Sarah Lawrence
#13 - Cooper Union
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Well… There It Is…
I Thought That Was Cool.
Um…
Er…
Oh Wait… The Obligatory Calvin Moment:
#8 - Students Pray on a Regular Basis
#10 - Don’t Inhale
#8 - Got Milk?
#6 - Scotch And Soda, Hold The Scotch
#6 - Stone-Cold Sober Schools
#14 - The Best Quality of Life
Ha Ha…
Yes.
I’m Whiney.
Nathanael Berends July 13th, 2004
Sometimes… You Just Can’t…
I Know That…
And Despite What I’d Think, I Can Convince Myself That I Understand That.
… B.c I Do… Really.
Is Anybody There?
Nathanael Berends July 10th, 2004
Well I’m out here on my own
Followin’ a star
Asking on my knees, for some direction, please,
And, God, you know that’s hard
Cause I’m such a stubborn man
Lord, I’m stubborn as a mule
Even though I struggle some, I believe a change will come
And I hear you love a fool
I see a road and a flash of lightning
Let me tell you it’s frightening
Is anybody there?
Oh, I need somebody tonight
To care
I’m feeling alone and it just don’t seem right
Is anybody there?
Oh, I need somebody to be
To know that I’m good enough for love
To walk beside me
And as a woman in this world
Well you must have felt like this
That a man might come along
With another hard luck song
And betray you with a kiss
But would you reconsider me
Though I know I’ve caused you pain
I’ve taken vows with you
I believe them to be true
Now can we take a little rain?
We could hit that road in a flash of lightning
Maybe it won’t be so frightening
[i love this song, b.c i assure you that you won't 'get it' the first time...]
[try again]
In Other News… I Miss Being Able To Talk.
Sadness.
(but sometimes that’s okay)
You Don’t Know, Do You?
Nathanael Berends July 10th, 2004
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!
It’s time to try
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And you can’t pull me down!
I’m through accepting limits
‘Cuz someone says they’re so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I’ll never know!
Too long I’ve been afraid of
Losing love I guess I’ve lost
Well, if that’s love
It comes at much too high a cost!
…I’m defying gravity
…Think of what we could
do: together.
It seemed somewhat poetic - something that kept me smiling.
The progressive melody of this song filtered through my car; defined a soundtrack that was synchronized perfectly with the headlights of the oncoming traffic - teasing the trees around the bend with shadows -
The Windows Were Down -
The Breeze Was Brisk -
At 12:07 am, My Speedometer Read Fifty-Four Miles-Per-Hour -
This Was Completely Perfect - I Was Content.
Then…
I Listened To The Words Of The Song, And Realized That The Moment Was Not Completely Perfect.
Nonetheless, I Was Still Content.
*I Am Still Content.
[you don't know how much i like this.]
Rather:
[you don't know how much i like you.]
Like I Am Dying?
Nathanael Berends July 9th, 2004
Like I Am Dying?
How?
…and I became a friend
a friend would like to have.
…and I took a good hard look
at what I’d do if I could do it all again.
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying
like tomorrow was a gift
and you got eternity
to think about
what to do with it
what could you do with it
what can I do with it
and what would I do with it.
I’m Not With Him.
Nathanael Berends July 8th, 2004
Heads Up! - This One Might Get A Little Long, And I Might Get A Little Deep.
…. So I know that the 4th was a while ago, but I keep thinking about something that I saw there. It really wasn’t what I saw there that started this, but it “rekindled” a fire that has been laying low. I have had some pretty interesting conversations reguarding this, and it seems that everyone has their own view, and most of them are very valid. About now, your probably asking “What Did You See Nate?”.
What started this … “episode?”… was very simple, but it seemed that I wasn’t the only one that was pissed about it. It was very simply a guy with a sign. Under normal circumstances, I would simply dismiss it as a guy with a sign - which it was. However this sign has some writing on it that cought my attention, and the attention of others.
After a short while it seemed that there was a circle of people from Christian High who were grilling this guy about his sign.
Again, your probably asking “NATE!?! - What Did The Sign Say?”.
The front side carried the message that the end is near, and all sinners (It listed them: Adulterers, Lyers, Idolaters, ROCK & ROLLERS, Dopers, Cheaters, Thieves, Etc.) must repent and fall before the vengefull God above. The backside said “The Wages Of Sin Is Death” - But it was arranged in such a fashion that letters from those words spelled AIDS. The essence of this side of the sign was that it you have aids, prepair to burn in hell.
That was what the sign said, what came from his mouth was much more offensive to any Christian of any variety.
Please take some time and consider what your reaction to this type of person would be. I did, and then prepared to bout with this guy. Luckily I had fifteen people - all raised in the CR tradition - surrounding me.
To start off, I talked for a while with people about the reverse of the sign. While I was doing this, others were already knee deep in a “discussion” of their own. What we discussed was interesting, but too diverse to create a transcript for. What I got out of the experience was more of a “big picture” message.
I came to the realization that being a Christian is one thing, and saying you are a Christian is another - duh!
What this guy was preaching was a hard, and un-understanding christianity. This guys world was black and white, you are saved, or not. Please take my word, this guy was extreme. He fell into the same league as Fred Phelps (Who is one sick person), and Gerri Falwell. If you are unfamilliar with either of the freaks, consider yourself lucky. Anyhow, I realized the scary fact that the world is plagued with Toxic Christians.
Thank God that I have been brought up in a CR tradition, and I have a foundation to build my faith on. However the horrific truth is that if I saw this guy on the street - if I knew very little about the Christian faith - I would have a great reason to never become a Christian. All the time that I listened to this guy, in the back of my mind I kept thinking about how many people have seen this guy’s “show”, and have been put off on the Christian faith?
A bunch of questions came to my mind reguarding this. How can this be? What is our responsibility - as Christians - to deal with these situations? What creates this kind of a situation? All of these questions came to me, and I realized that there are no really easy answers here - I can’t go to Schulers, and pick up “How To Deal With “Christians” - For Dummies”.
I guess that these questions are why I am writing this.
Now, For This To Make Sense Please Do As Follows:
Step One: Go To My Archives.
Step Two: Go To July 9, 2003
Step Three: Laugh Heartily
The Moon
Nathanael Berends July 3rd, 2004
I Looked At The Moon, And Realized You Were Probably Right.
[that was cool.]
(Editorial Aside) : Re: This Morning - Thanks!
Wonderwall
Nathanael Berends July 2nd, 2004
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don’t know how
Because maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You’re my wonderwall
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My Stolen Definition:
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Something or someone that is always interesting. For instance, when you lay in bed at night, you can stare at your wall and begin to notice all the little details that you wouldnt have notice otherwise. A wonderwall reflects your greatest thoughts and emotions.
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If Anyone Has A Better Definition, I’d Love To Hear It…
I Just Like That Song.
Maybe Though, You Shouldn’t Define Wonderwall… Perhaps It Is A Word That Lacks The Ability To Be Defined…
That’d Make Sense In The Context Of The Song Too!
Anyhow… Time To Go…
[thanks for your time]