A First Attempt
Nathanael Berends October 28th, 2006
Welcome to the first of many posts on MoreThanMine.
(get excited.)
In the meantime, I am adding old post. For fun… And… Embarrassment.
Archive for the 'Small Things' Category
Fun, anyone?
Nathanael Berends October 31st, 2004
If I Had Time, I’d Elaborate.
(i look forward to when my life is fun again.)
Northwestern
Don’t you ever wish that there were always…
Nathanael Berends October 13th, 2004
Ha… I go for premium, and then realize that I have been
loosing any inclination to use this site.
(iLaugh)
(recent headlines): Don’t you ever wish that there were always
that one person who you could talk to about anything, anytime?
Yeah… um.. about that…
(any eProps that offer any remote bit of sympathy will be
disregarded. yes, i know that you guys are there, and all
things considered i’ve not got it all that bad… but i guess
that sometimes things just sorta build up…)
((i’ll take care of it))
… Actually… I’m on a role… Can I continue?!?
So lately… things have seriously fallen to (excuse my expletive)
shit.
…it’s funny, because it seems like I’ve had so much practice at
faking things, that I can smile my way through the day, and fool
everyone. On a good day, I might even be able to fool myself!
Where even to start?!?
(i’ll make it brief )
1.) Baxter… Falling to hell in a handbasket. I spent the second
day this week ducking out of class on ‘bathroom breaks’ to field
phone calls & voicemail messages.
2.) School… I first thought I could catch myself back up. This sucks.
3.) Friendships… Don’t you hate it when they aren’t what they seem?!?
4.) 42nd Street… Nancy. (what more can i say?)
5.) My Future… Scares me shitless.
6.) Overdraft notices, and $100 in fines… Who knew you had to
authorize them to take money from my savings account (where
there is MORE than enough), and move it to pay for my debit
account? $100 for an F-in signature… AHHHHHH!
7.) $190 in college app fees to date… Enough Said. (i’ve applied
to one school so far)
(( i really could go on for a LONG time…))
… The only upside to any of this that I see in the near future…
almost ten times ‘that’ from Baxter in hourly fees…
As a last note: Remember when I told you how scared I was of
failure?!?
… wait for it…
Surprise.
Nathanael Berends October 10th, 2004
After Tonight, That Last Post Has Gained A WHOLE New Meaning.
Wow. Didn’t See That Coming…
How Far?
Nathanael Berends October 8th, 2004
There’s a boat, I could sail away
There’s the sky, I could catch a plane
There’s a train, there’s the tracks
I could leave and I could choose to not come back
There’s a chance I could change my mind
But I won’t, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
What’s so funny?
Nathanael Berends October 6th, 2004
What’s So Funny About Peace, Love & Understanding?
(what’s so funny about us?!?)
Wow… What Arrogance.
Nathanael Berends September 6th, 2004
Okay… Thumbfest.
What can I say except that I should feel more greatful than I am?
This weekend, I was invited (and payed very well ) to mix the acts on mainstage at Thumbfest…
That is such an honor…
…An honor that they would think it worthwhile to drag me from the opposite side of the state, and have me be the only thing separating the Mainstage acts from failure and success.
The crowning moments of the festival - for me - occured during the last set of the evening:
… It was either the moment when C.J. - the lead singer of ‘Tangerine Trousers’ spent a minute and a half talking about how far ahead of so many highschool seniors I am… or when my ‘fan club’ - sitting behind, and to the left of me, began chanting my name when one of the acts thanked me.
(i am so damn cocky… sorry)
Anyhow, it was cool!
I was very proud of how I handled the festival, and the audience seemed to agree. It was SOOO Cool to have people - ages 15 to 70 - compliment my talents.
…And, it was cool to overhear my dad bragging about how his youngest child owned a company, and was succeding wildly in the festival circuit.
Matt Watroba - the emcee of the festival - assured me that I have got an Unlimited Future in audio engineering if I want it.
… I was struck by how he - almost as an afterthought - added ‘if you want it’…
(maybe i’ll explain at a later date why that was soo cool for me to hear)
Anyhow - I recognize that this post is all about me, and is SOOO egotistical. That said, I would like to appologize…
But, rest assured that I am happy about how this weekend has turned out… I can’t type my true excitement, so maybe I’ll need to tell you in person some time…
It is this type of weekend that assures me that I have got SOOO much to look forward to.
… Awesome.
[Joy Fits!]