I just wanted to take a moment and make whatever amends I may.

But… On another, more serious note:

I just got home, last night, from SpringHill Camp, where I spent the summer counseling 4th-6th graders. This experience proved to be more spiritually and personally fulfilling than I could ever have imagined.

Anyhow, an environment like that affords alot of time for personal reflection, and whatnot.

A few weekends ago, I found the chat transcript from that one night when we nearly killed the other. Sadly, I realize that using only those descriptors is probably not enough to really jog your memory, which really a.) makes me sad, and b.) justifies my current thoughts.

At any rate, I just wanted to take a moment and make whatever amends I may.

Our relationship has been very dynamic over the years. It’s had ups. And downs. And through that all, I think we’ve both learned things–some good, and some bad. Regardless, I realize that, considering the real sense of pain that I myself felt on more than one occasion, I must’ve certainly hurt you. In fact, I know that I have. I know, Kelli, that on a number of occasions, I was no more a friend than a plain adversary. I have always, since we’ve known one another, wanted your friendship. For various reasons, that goal was never really realized. And, in the process, I know that I said things I didn’t mean, behaved in ways that I shouldn’t have, and destroyed what friendship we may’ve once had

So. For that, I sincerely apologize. For the tears that were unnecessarily shed, I wish to assure you that, even if it once seemed my intent, I recognize the damage to our friendship that it has done.

It seemed like we could’ve-at any point-been good friends, but were never able to become such. For that failed opportunity, I am also sorry.

As I prepare to leave for school in 12 days, it is my hope that you can forgive my errors, and that we may look back on our relationship in a positive light.

I wish you nothing but the best for your impending senior year–may it be filled with blessings and experiences that far exceed your wildest dreams. May you maintain and continue to build relationships that will last your entire lifetime, and may you learn lessons what will forever serve you well.

With a sincere heart,

- Nate